That's going to sound odd but...

Gregory House.

And I mean it. Here's why : he's a big jerk with everyone he actually loves or cares about, but in the end we all know he actually needs them. When he feels rejected, instead of giving up his pride and trying to get the person who he feels reject him back, he just... pushes him even further from him. He doesn't let other people help him. He acts alls sarcastic and cynical to protect himself ; he's very proud, but he actually wants to do something good with his life, and he wants to help people, and shows others who don't believe in him that he can be good (his father for instance.) He wants people to respect him because of what he does, because he's intelligent and clever and not because he is pretty or nice. When I watch House, I can relate to any of his decisions, especially the stupidest, because I know that's how I would act, being the selfish jerk I am. And I am not proud of this, and I do not think it makes me edgy or better than you. I just... I don't know. Somewhere between my 9 and 12 years, I decided crying and showing emotions was being weak, and so I became a jerk. And man does it suck.

Also, I think I can relate a bit to Mahone, but more in a "I understand his decisions and seeing how bad it makes him feel makes me feel bad too" way, seeing that I didn't kill people, I don't work for the FBI aaand I'm not using.

Those writer's blocks things are actually kinda funny. p:

No, never.

I am atheist/agnostic, and always have been (my parents are too, and though they made clear I was free on that decision, I never felt like picking a religion or anything.) However, as a very idealist person, I really respect people who are religious (not the ANGRY RELIGIOUS type, the I believe in Jesus who told us being nice to people is good type) because they are able to trust someone they don't even have tangible proof exists, while I, on the other hand, am barely capable of trusting people I know since I was born.

I think faith (and not religion) is a good thing, a good idea, a good whatever you want to call it, because it gives people hope, and if thinking your life is all traced or someone is over the clouds watching over you, cheering when you do well and sobbing when you do bad, makes you feel better, then so be it. I don't mind. I have a close friend who is protestant and she's a very sweet, nice and loving person, she is not a rabid "Christ-fag" as they call it, and it really broke my heart when she told me she was worried about me, about the fact that maybe I was going to go to Hell because I didn't believe in God. She didn't say it to me in a "if you don't believe in God you are doomed" way, but in a "I fear for your afterlife as a friend" way, and it touched me very deeply.

So I guess humans screwed up the idea of faith by trying to force it on others, and blah blah blah.

ps sometimes I actually wish I believed in God, so I could have someone to turn to when no one's there. haha